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I just hope she will see.... What I did I wanted to rectify everything. Not make it worse. I didnt mean to shame you or anything...And yeah I beg for everyone's apology. I beg for the forgiveness for all that have been caught in this crossfire.
Please darling...I love you and I wanna grow old with you......
Please dear...All I wanted was to be better..Even before this happened.....
Thats all....
Thats all....
My stupid self
Just when I thought I wanted to settle everything, without wanting to cause any wrath incured, it backfired. Yes my stupid self. Stupidity on my part. I could have prevented all this. Yes the lack of realisation. Then that day when I realised after sitting down, reflecting upon myself I realise, hey I wanna be a husband. A father a man with tonnes of responsibilities. I want to be that. Not anything else. I decided to settle everything without telling her. Yah, I know that is bad on my part. I have to tell her things but I didnt want her to worry.
But she found out. Just as I wanted to settle things on my end. I dont want to make a whole lot of hoohaa but then the worst happened.
I dun blame her...nobody for this but myself.....My damn stupid self.
IF this time round if its too late too apologise or beyond apologies, I dont blame her. I'm not good for anyone. Not even myself. But this will be my turning point. My resolve.
I'm sorry for what has happened. To everyone involved. Yes, I'm hopeless.
I'm also hopelessly in love with her...
But then its all up to her....
Its all up to her now...
Even before this I have made a resolve to end this stupidity and to get on with living.
I want a happy life. A life with no worries...Be a father to be a husband ......
If this dream fades then I will still continue my resolve to be better but I ddo not want to be husband of anyone else but her...
And the father of no other children but hers.
I'm broken...but its my own fault...I smashed myself to pieces....I guess even if this is the end then maybe its the end of my dreams....my love..... coz my love is only for her...I will keep waiting and waiting...
Hopefully she understands my resolve......
It all boils down to this.....
I am to blame....
Its my fault ....
So face the music....
GET LOST!
GET LOST!!!
GET LOST!!! damn it!! Whoever cant stop me from saying what I wanna say!!!
Get lost!! You're like a parasite bringing your so-called sorrows into ppl's lives. What's your point?? We wanna live and let live so cant u just get lost!!! I don't care if you die or disappear from the face of the earth. Well...I'm inhumane?? Think again I'm the inhumane one or are you the one. You don't care how I feel about this right...now i say this..MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!! You dare say that you want it to be a secret???
Havent you had enuff of destroying ppl's lives and all...Now u wanna destroy mine??? U picked the wrong guy asshole!!! i Don't care what problems you face!!! Just get lost disappear from our lives!!!! Cant u understand?? or should i show u how???
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Disclamer
Ini blog gua, Lu tak suka Lu Keluar.
Relek satu corner, Makan pisang
SIAPA GUA!!!
Nama Gua Fyr, Keturunan Bawean Kelahiran Singapura
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