I just hope she will see.... What I did I wanted to rectify everything. Not make it worse. I didnt mean to shame you or anything...And yeah I beg for everyone's apology. I beg for the forgiveness for all that have been caught in this crossfire.
Please darling...I love you and I wanna grow old with you......
Please dear...All I wanted was to be better..Even before this happened.....
Just when I thought I wanted to settle everything, without wanting to cause any wrath incured, it backfired. Yes my stupid self. Stupidity on my part. I could have prevented all this. Yes the lack of realisation. Then that day when I realised after sitting down, reflecting upon myself I realise, hey I wanna be a husband. A father a man with tonnes of responsibilities. I want to be that. Not anything else. I decided to settle everything without telling her. Yah, I know that is bad on my part. I have to tell her things but I didnt want her to worry.
But she found out. Just as I wanted to settle things on my end. I dont want to make a whole lot of hoohaa but then the worst happened.
I dun blame her...nobody for this but myself.....My damn stupid self. IF this time round if its too late too apologise or beyond apologies, I dont blame her. I'm not good for anyone. Not even myself. But this will be my turning point. My resolve.
I'm sorry for what has happened. To everyone involved. Yes, I'm hopeless.
I'm also hopelessly in love with her...
But then its all up to her....
Its all up to her now...
Even before this I have made a resolve to end this stupidity and to get on with living.
I want a happy life. A life with no worries...Be a father to be a husband ......
If this dream fades then I will still continue my resolve to be better but I ddo not want to be husband of anyone else but her...
And the father of no other children but hers.
I'm broken...but its my own fault...I smashed myself to pieces....I guess even if this is the end then maybe its the end of my dreams....my love..... coz my love is only for her...I will keep waiting and waiting...
GET LOST!!! damn it!! Whoever cant stop me from saying what I wanna say!!!
Get lost!! You're like a parasite bringing your so-called sorrows into ppl's lives. What's your point?? We wanna live and let live so cant u just get lost!!! I don't care if you die or disappear from the face of the earth. Well...I'm inhumane?? Think again I'm the inhumane one or are you the one. You don't care how I feel about this right...now i say this..MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!! You dare say that you want it to be a secret???
Havent you had enuff of destroying ppl's lives and all...Now u wanna destroy mine??? U picked the wrong guy asshole!!! i Don't care what problems you face!!! Just get lost disappear from our lives!!!! Cant u understand?? or should i show u how???
Congrats
Wah! Got good news today. My younger brother Hakim just passed his Class 3 licence...Congrats bro!!! Told u u cld do it....Now..all my siblings whjo are old enough to drive has got a licence. Woo hoo...Altogether 5 drivers in the family... Congrats bro....
For that someone...I hope you come to...coz you living in that fucked up dream world far too long....
Love you to Death
Somehow this song reflects what I am feeling at this moment. Really what I am feeling now.... Its playing in the background. Its a soothing doom metal song.....very nice....
Title :Love You to Death By: Type-O Negative
In her place one hundred candles burning A salty sweat drips from her breast Her hips move and I can feel what they're saying, swaying They say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get...
Black lipstick stains her glass of red wine I am your servant, may I light your cigarette? Those lips smooth, yeah I can feel what you're saying, praying They say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get...
I beg to serve, your wish is my law Now close those eyes and let me love you to death Shall I prove I mean what I'm saying, begging I say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get...
Let me love you too Let me love you to death Hey am I good enough For you? Hey am I good enough For you? Am I? Am I? Am I good enough For you?
Is he or isnt he
Is he not good enuff for her that she needs to seek solace in another man? Is his love worthless to her that she needs to seek attention from someone else? Is he even worthwhile to her? What does she need from him? Patience? Understanding? He is giving the most understanding he can..but is it enough? Is it? He can't live without her....but she? He doesnt know........ He doesn't know.... He doesnt know.... He doesn't want to give up.... But sometimes it drives him crazy... He says things he doesnt want to... He's going crazy... But he won't give up... Is he crazy????
Tipah adela bdk kampung dan ingin memutuskan perhubungan dengan bf MAT SALLEH nya... Dia tak sanggup bertemu muka, Lalu dia pun mengutus surat... surat tu macam ni bunyinya:
Hi John, My wish write this letter is to give know you something. I WANT TO CUT CONNECTION US. I have think about this very cook Cook. I know I clap one hand onl y. Correctly, I have seen you and she together at town with eyes myself. You always ask for apology back back. I don't trust you again!!! You are really crocodile land. My Friend speak you play wood three... Now I know you correct correct play wood three. So, I break connection to pull my body from this love triangle. I know this result I pick is very correct, because you love she very high from me. So, I break off to go far from here. I don't want you to play play with my liver. I have been crying until no more eye water thinking about you. I don't want banana to fruit two times...
To my dearest
To my dearest.... this is for you... On our special day today....
Here there are no angels of despair. Arrayed in choirs, they sing only of joy. Performing for the sheer delight of being, Poised between the act of sight and seeing, Yet infinite, yet of this earth, they toy
Scholastically with being here nor there, Eden's hosts, though none the worse for wear. Come down from that sweet hilltop, anguish fleeing, On those they light who for another care, Now filling with their ecstasy the air, Dear hints of bliss no evil can destroy.
Nama Gua Fyr, Keturunan Bawean Kelahiran Singapura
Gua dah attached ngan wanita terunggul dalam hati gua
Guaa takder peminat dan sungguh tidak diminati ramai
Gua bukan Taufik Batisah, gua bukan Imran Ajmain
Gua LOVERBOY...hehehe
